To outsiders, looking in, it looks like your sitting on your arse feeling sorry for yourself, what they don’t see is the fecking trauma that is going on inside your head!!!
How I wished I looked all day…..
My body and mind want me to have a long soak in the bath and stay in my pjs on the sofa with a blanket like a little old lady for the day (because it’s Sunday and that’s allowed).
But, my hair desperately needs washing 😫😫 which I can only do in the shower!!!! and I want a bath…
When you live with chronic pain and exhaustion having a shower is like a full on physical assault!!!! It’s saps you of your energy and the pain from the shower hitting you is horrendous.
I’m living in a permanent state of hypersensitivity, due to my spinal nerves being crushed.. So the shower hitting me is like millions of little burning hot pokers stabbing me repeatedly!!! Oddly enough that’s not so appealing.
How I end up looking at the end of the day…
So I either sacrifice my “lazy” day of soaking in the bath and sleeping on/off lying on the sofa, getting nothing but “rest” done. Or scrap all that and go and have a shower, which will leave having to go to bed this afternoon and missing out on “family” time
But if I don’t wash my hair, I’m gonna want to shave it all off by midday!!!
So I’ll probably just stay here procrastinating scrolling through TikTok instead, cause that’ll get shit done!!!
https://www.tiktok.com/@flutterbuysbycaz
What a life eh??
#chronicpain
#mentalhealth
#thyroid
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